A fire burns inside my chest, the hollow
Crevice of my breast
The flames are licking up my spine
I've denied this power all this time
The sun and stars course through my veins
All fear and doubt have burned away
I lost my soul amid the snow
So I lived these years just like a ghost
The darkness crushed and tortured me
But that's not who I'm meant to be
An empty shell without a heart
I found it frozen, searching for a spark
My dance with death has taught me much
about love, and life, and peoples' limits
I learned that living life is sacred
Because death, not pain, is really endless
To find peace I had to want to be alive
I lea
I was so naive.
To think the problem was really between me and my fat thighs. That it was really all about the extra pounds. That if I could just be skinny I would be happy. I really, truly believed that; I made it my reality. I see now, that my obsession with being thin was rooted in a desperate desire to disappear, to be invisible, to take up as little space as possible because I didn't feel worthy enough to fill it with my body. I felt, although I hardly could articulate this feeling to myself at the time, like I didn't deserve to occupy my body, to fill the space around me with joy and happiness and desire. And love.
This fundamental
if love was this thin
i would rather hate my body
full and thick
if love was this fickle to me
i would hate everybody
and fight to stay sick
somewhere between one hundred
and five
i find a place inside of me
that wants to be alive
death dances too close
holding my hand and coursing me
"you will be happy
only in the face of change,
wither away
and your reward will be great"
if love could spin this deception
our world would be dark
as people we are all players
let love in and
act the part
you could be loved
and be Love
inhale, exhale
every breath i take
life, leaving
i am giving fire
to the lives that spring
from every breath i take.
life, receiving
i am taking in the wind
that lifts my spirit to the sky.
inhale
that which i am
so i may
exhale
that which makes you.
you are the satellite i spy
every time the sun sets
constant in the sky
the wind that pulls
and lulls me
by and by
is your scent and the sound
of your sweet lullaby
birds and bees
the trees and the breeze
fly and glide whilst they
swing and sway in the fray
of better days
hold me under
waves and thunder
couldn't clash and smash
apart my heart
this is not a dream
you are my amphetamine
A fire burns inside my chest, the hollow
Crevice of my breast
The flames are licking up my spine
I've denied this power all this time
The sun and stars course through my veins
All fear and doubt have burned away
I lost my soul amid the snow
So I lived these years just like a ghost
The darkness crushed and tortured me
But that's not who I'm meant to be
An empty shell without a heart
I found it frozen, searching for a spark
My dance with death has taught me much
about love, and life, and peoples' limits
I learned that living life is sacred
Because death, not pain, is really endless
To find peace I had to want to be alive
I lea
I was so naive.
To think the problem was really between me and my fat thighs. That it was really all about the extra pounds. That if I could just be skinny I would be happy. I really, truly believed that; I made it my reality. I see now, that my obsession with being thin was rooted in a desperate desire to disappear, to be invisible, to take up as little space as possible because I didn't feel worthy enough to fill it with my body. I felt, although I hardly could articulate this feeling to myself at the time, like I didn't deserve to occupy my body, to fill the space around me with joy and happiness and desire. And love.
This fundamental
if love was this thin
i would rather hate my body
full and thick
if love was this fickle to me
i would hate everybody
and fight to stay sick
somewhere between one hundred
and five
i find a place inside of me
that wants to be alive
death dances too close
holding my hand and coursing me
"you will be happy
only in the face of change,
wither away
and your reward will be great"
if love could spin this deception
our world would be dark
as people we are all players
let love in and
act the part
you could be loved
and be Love
inhale, exhale
every breath i take
life, leaving
i am giving fire
to the lives that spring
from every breath i take.
life, receiving
i am taking in the wind
that lifts my spirit to the sky.
inhale
that which i am
so i may
exhale
that which makes you.
“Tell me a story.”
“Once upon a time there was a girl of reasonable loveliness who lived in a tower guarded by a dragon.”
“Go on…"
“It was a small dragon, to be fair, but very fierce.”
“What color?”
“One day, a brave, and stoopid knight forced his poor, unfortunately loyal horse to carry him to the tower where the girl lived. Because he thought, for no good reason at all, that she was a princess, and that there was a ransom for her return. Of course, being a stoopid knight, he did not verify any of this information with the local authorities, or receive of ticket of legal
The day fast broke, the noise then woke
while desert turned to flood.
The rocks cut deep and blood did seep,
and salt burned in my lungs.
Dark tendrils grasped, my legs they clasped
and clawed into my bones.
The waves crashed down, black roaring sound,
while I was dragged below.
A gust then blew, throughout the world,
and tied up all the trees.
A storm it formed, the sky it tore,
and swallowed every breeze.
The wind that came left none to save,
it sliced into my skin.
It beat us down and stole the sound:
A gale without a din.
I am ruled by magic.
He was like a hurricane, &
in the calm before
the storm
I would stand & marvel
at what a wondrous force of nature he could be.
In his eye
I laid out on my back & watched the world swirl by
without a sound
with only flinging slinging colours all around.
But as nature's known to do,
he shifts & turns
& tears right through
my heart.
Sometimes, in a gust of wind,
he will swallow up the sky &
disappear or reappear as
everything.
Torn & tattered,
the space that holds him dear to me
is wounded nevermore
when everyday, I feel a breeze,
& know his soul is finally set free.